On dit qu'il faut 10 ans pour faire un bon artisan ! Chaque nouvelle technique abordée donne parfois l'impression de régresser et demande patience, constance, ténacité. Et également clarté, organisation, planification rigoureuse... et ça, c'est plus difficile pour moi : un projet de bijoux ? Oui, projeté, défini, avec croquis, notations techniques, etc...Mais une fois à l'oeuvre, autant à la préparation qu'après la cuisson, les pièces semblent se transformer, exiger autre chose. Elles commandent, elles décident, mesdames !!! et se démultiplient, suggèrent 10 variantes toutes aussi intéressantes, et deviennent 10 pièces potentielles pour une seule. Ma vision se brouille... Je laisse décanter. Revenir plus tard voir si l'une d'elle s'est imposée ! Et concevoir des solutions techniques d'après-coup. Bricoler, quoi ! Et assumer les imperfections...!
J'ai trouvé sur "Metal Clay Yahoo groups" ce message de Pam East, qui répond bien à mes préoccupations, et sans doute aux votres, amis créateurs... :
RE: [Metal Clay Gallery] Art & Fear
"I really think this issue resonantes with all artists to some degree. We
all have this secret fear that we'll be discovered to be frauds, not *real*
artists.
I think part of the problem stems from the utter impossiblity of being
objective about your own work. There is just no way to seperate yourself
from the piece and the process. When you look at something you made, you
see the original vision you had in your head, the things you percieve as
imperfections, ways you could have done it better, the struggle and hours
that went in to making it, what you wanted to achieve and how you fell
short. You may have achieved something truly wonderful, but will be unable
to see it through the filter of your expectations. But when someone else
views your work, they see none of that. They see only the finished work,
free from all preconcieved notions and bias. You think they are being
"kind" when they say nice things about it, but they are probably being
sincere. They don't view it the same way you do.
Consider this for a moment. Look at someone else's peice that you really
admire. When you look at it, you see the beauty and form, everything that
you've been striving for. To you it just appears before you, instant and
effortless. There's a sense that THIS person obviously knows what they are
doing, to have made such a piece. We forget that "this person" probably
went through all the same stuggles we did on our own pieces; that
regardless of how it looks, it wasn't "effortless" and they are going to
view it much more critically.
We ALL do this. We ALL unconciously assume that we are the only ones who
are struggling, and that it's much easier for the person we admire. But in
reality, that other person is probably thinking exactly the same thing about
you. They're sitting there smiling as they show you thier work, appearing
at ease and confident, but inside they are looking at the peice and seeing
all the "flaws" and thinking "I just hope they don't realize what a fraud I
am!"
A dear friend of mine, who has also been one of my students, once came over
to spend a few "play days" with me. I wasn't teaching her, we were just
working on our own projects. She sat there watching me curse and swear at
a piece that was fighting me. She watched me take things apart, break
things, put things back together, and she grinned the whole time. At the
end of the weekend she told me what a huge relief it had been to her to see
me working like that. To know that struggles plague everyone, not just her.
So give yourself a break. Be kind to yourself. If a piece has really
fought you, put it aside for a while. Don't look at it for a good long time,
and allow your preconcieved ideas to fade. You may find, when you go back
to it later, you can view it more objectively."
Et pour finir, un essai parmi d'autres de bague en bronze (Prometheus bronze clay) :
